Creative Coma

As spring approaches (or as mother nature teases us with glimmers of spring) I realize what a drag I have been recently.  Oh, and by recently,  I mean the past 5 months.  I'm not sure what it is, but for the past few winters  I end up thinking that I won't make it out of winter alive or at least not with my sanity.  I used to looooove winter.  Snow days, snow forts, sledding, boarding, cozy fires. All those things now seem to bring on the anxiety that keeps me hidden in my bed for the better portion of November through March.  I don't know what it is.  I crave light, warmth, flip flops and t-shirts, the freedom to drive anywhere without wondering if my poor honda civic will make it from point A to point B without sliding to my death.  Not that I don't enjoy sliding around in the snow every now and then,  I just wish it wouldn't last THIS long.  Seriously though,  isn't five months a little on the long side?  Can't it go from, oh I don't know, December to January?  

Maybe it was my mission that did me in.  I spent two winters in southern Spain with southern california temperatures and although I thought I would really miss a white winter,  guess what folks? I didn't.  Not one bit.  Terrible isn't it?  I know!  I should care more about winter!  The snow covered mountains, the awesome ski resorts, the... k, thats all I can come up with, sorry winter lovers.  

There ARE some things that I do LIKE about winter.  I like it when it snows on Christmas,  I like being up at my cabin in the winter with friends, I like snowshoeing and I even enjoy myself when Ben forces me up to Alta to ski.  I did grow up skiing.  My parents met skiing for crying out loud!  My brother desperately wanted to be Johnny Moseley for awhile and my sister was a sponsored snowboarder!  not to mention I married into a die hard family of skiers! Great!  I did learn to ski when I was six and was forced into going up there a million times a year until I was about 15 and I started having soccer and bball practice on Saturdays. And, I do ENJOY skiing when I get up there, but  I always find myself up there, sitting on the ski lift, wondering when it will be warm enough for me to take the boat out and start waterskiing again.  I am never waiting in anticipation for the ski resorts to open up.  

Bottom line is:  I am a summer girl.  I wave buh bye to winter with a little chip on my shoulder... not to mention with tighter pants and some pasty white skin. Woe is me.  I also leave winter behind with some new found goals (on the positive end)  My newest goals include:

1. Getting myself into race shape (this could be a toughy):  I plan on heading to the SL running company for some new duds to go pound the pavement in (as soon as my next paycheck comes... and after I pay all of my bills, of course.  Responsibility really blows).

2. Redecorating:  I have become obsessed with updating my house and giving it a funkier feel.  I also have to do this on little or no money.  I am going to be refurbishing a lot o crap.  No worries, I have all my DIY mags dog eared and ready to go! 

3. Falling back in love with new music:  I used to peruse the internet constantly for the latest and greatest sounds and up and coming artists.  I think I made Ben a new mix almost once a week when we first started dating.  I am going to start that up again.  

4.  Rock Climbing:  This has been something I have wanted to do forever and really enjoy.  I spent about a year rock climbing with some buddies a few years back, but then I ended up dating one of them, breaking up with said person, and needless to say, we are no longer "climbing buddies".  Thus ended that stint.  Come to find out that Ben has a bunch of gear and wants to do it with me! Yay!  new hobby.  I may need some lessons first...

5.  Traveling:  I am a travel junkie.  As I have stated in earlier posts,  if I had it my way I would be here in Salt Lake for six months of the year and traveling all around the world the other six.  My goal is to take Ben to Spain before the end of the year... If I can get him away from work long enough.

I'm sure new goals will arise, but here you go for now.  Here's to sunny days and 70 degree temps!