Moral DIlemma

I'm having major issues today. Good issues, not bad ones, but issues nonetheless.

As most of you know, I work for a youth non-profit organization as the International service and development director. We put high school students through a year long service program involving local and international service. We work in 4 countries, take about 140 students abroad a year and our goal is to create life-time humanitarians. It is a great job. I love what I do. I work lots of hours and I don't get paid much. You know that going into non-profit. You don't do it for the money.

Here comes the dilemma: I was just offered a new job yesterday with a new company. They are a web development company, they develop all of the on-line applications and such for the government and state of Utah. It is a cool company. Good people. The position is a marketing position. They have offered me more money, great benefits and a stable work environment with lots of room to grow. A good friend of mine works there, and she really enjoys it.

So, what do I do? More money? More stability? Or, my little non-profit. Both are good options, but I don't know what is best. I need help. I need opinions. I need advice.

I welcome your thoughts.

Please advise.

Washington

I am the bear

that hibernates

inside a cave, inside herself

full of rotting meat and sour juices.

If I were a berry I’d be black

and I would nestle deep inside

 a prickly bush

                        aside Lake Sammamish to wait for you-

breach the thorns and pick me.

I am your constant rain.

I am May 1980.

Dear St. Helen:

You are a crater full of ash and dust—

all the rest just petrified logs.

So long winded.

You reached your boiling point.

  I couldn’t leave my cave.

I hid. You exploded.

I am not a berry. 

I am grey ash and residue—

Starched bones and

  old news.

 I rest with the fog inside your crater.

 

I’ll let the rain wash away the flecks

 of dust that cause your throat to burn.

 

 

 

Yes Yes Yes!

It has been over three years since the Yeah Yeah Yeahs last appearance and I have been waiting  since that day for them to come and rock out again.  Last night the wait finally ended as Karen O and crew rolled into downtown SLC and brought the house down as only the YYY's can do.  If you have never seen this band live you are really missing out.  KO came out in an original jumpsuit outfit with tiger tights and a head piece and basically swallowed the mic as she sang a mix of all the best from their past three albums.  Truly, they did not disappoint.  

With the girls near the stage (from left to right: Megan, Miaken, Hayley, Me, Micky)

Hayley and Tony:  such a beautiful couple

We had a perfect view from the front railing of the balcony

Her moves are so awesome.  She is like a punk cheerleader

One of her many lunges.  During several clutch moments in the show, confetti exploded all over the stage and the audience

Thank you YYY's, for returning to appease some of your biggest fans.  We were thrilled.

FRIDAY

Today is Friday, which probably means I am feeling a little bit like this:

Which isn't too far from normal, since my head is in the clouds most of the time anyway.

But, today I am feeling like I'm on another planet and I'm not sure how I got there
 My life is an emotional rollercoaster
But it could be worse, I could look like this:
What if we put too much information in our brains and we looked like this:
TGIF.  I have a couple days now to rest and let the swelling go down.

Flatlined

Maybe when the World is flat

To chop your own head off

will no longer be an issue.

If my arms disengage from my body

limbs will still be present

but they won't be my own

and I don't do well without      extremities.

There may be some truth to this

Flat World,

and if I stand on a tuna fish can

I betcha I can see the top of your head,

where the bald spots are

and the scar from

when you walked into that satellite dish

as we ran through the sprinklers.

If I flatline soon

    tell my mom I am sorry

for the pot on the front porch

that I broke.  It was just an accident.

Summer Jams 2009

This post is for Catherine who is looking for some tunes to pass through her summer in San Fran (and by San Fran I really mean Emoryville... yay!).  Here you go, Cath, a short list of what I'm currently jammin to:

- "Nothing to Worry About"  by Peter Bjorn and John.  Trust me, you will love this one.  

- "Heads will Roll"  by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs. From the new and very mellow album, this song is one of the most dance appropriate songs.  

- "Deceptacon" by Le Tigre.  I don't know why I like this song, but I do, so there.

- "Buildings and Mountains" by the Republic Tigers.  Love these indie rockers.  

- "Red Morning Light" by Kings of Leon.  I don't have anything to say about them.  I just like them.

- "I'd Rather Dance with You" by Kings of Convenience.  This song sounds like it should have been in some eighties movie starring Matthew Broderick.  not sure why.

- "Comme des Enfants" by Coeur de Pirate.  cute little frenchie group a friend turned me on to.  

- "I'm a Lady" by Santogold.  Before Lady Gaga burst onto the scene wearing leotards with no pants, there was Santogold rocking gold unitards and sneakers.  

- "This is your Life"  by The Killers.  I love their latest album, and although I like 99% of the songs on the album,  this one has stepped into the forefront to become one of my favorites.

- "Life your Life" (Featuring Rihanna) by T.I.  You should try running to this song.  Excellent.

There you go, Cath.  That should hold ya off for a little while...

One Year Later...

Last year at this time we were here:

And we were enjoying this:

And we had to sign this:

So that we could do this:

And then enjoy this:

I still feel today the way I did in that wedding photo, straight out of the Oahu Temple where I got hitched to the love of my life.  What a year it has been.  There is never a dull moment with BC... Just how I imagined it.

Love your guts, Benny.  Always will.  Happy Anniversary, Lover!